Yeah, of course. >> And they have a lot of restrictions about trying to keep everything low versus high. >> I want to go to the grocery store when we get out and I want to I want to On the way back, I want to I want a smoothie. I want I want my coffee. I want to go to McDonald's and then I want to go home and I want to I want I want you to I want you to like give me a bath. >> Give you a what? >> Give me a bath. >> A bath? Give you a bath? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. We can We can get you cleaned up, baby. >> I I don't even want to stand. I want I want you to bathe me. >> You may start a conversation now. >> Can you hear me? >> Hi, honey. >> Hi, I'm here. >> Sorry for what's here right now. >> Yeah, I can tell. >> We have some woman screaming. We have some woman screaming, crying. >> Oh gosh, I'm sorry, baby. I don't know. >> know how hard it is to sleep in here? Do you know how hard it is to sleep in here? >> Did you get any sleep last night? >> Um actually some. >> Well, that's good. >> Actually a little bit. This is the first time they've let us out today. I've been in my cell since last night. >> Oh gosh, I was wondering cuz usually you call me in the morning. I was maybe you just missed your chance or we didn't work. >> No. No, they haven't let us out today. I've been in my cell. >> Have you been able to try the commissary yet? >> No, I just got I just got out 1 minute ago. >> Oh, so you just want to give me a call before you try it? >> I called you immediately. Yeah, I called you immediately. I could go try it right now. No one's at it. >> Well, I mean, might as well wait for our call so we can talk. >> Okay. You're right. >> We can talk for 15 minutes and then do it. >> Okay, you're right. You're right. >> Yeah. >> I'm I'm like counting down I'm like counting down the hours. >> Until you can talk with RJ and get figure out what's going on. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. Well, Wednesday, Wednesday, right? >> Wednesday at about 2:30. >> Yeah. Yeah, I'm good, Sarika. It's only about a day and a half to go. >> 2 days about, less than that, a little less than 2. >> Well, that's if he's there in the morning. I know it's Friday, but I don't know what time of day he's going to be there. >> I think he's going to be here really in the morning. >> I hope so. I really hope that's the case just cuz I want you to be able to get this figure out what's going on get this over as soon as possible. Yeah, work's been crazy. A lot of people quitting. >> Really? >> Yeah, my my team's down to just me and Ben. >> Wow. >> Yeah, Tyler left and I think Destiny is your friend. She hasn't been in since he quit, so I think she's gone too. >> Wow. >> Yeah. Yeah, sounds very lively over there today. Yeah, I'm really glad you were able to get some commissary loaded. I really hope that they got it especially since you were in the bed for so long and hoping they had time this morning to get it set up so you can use it. >> I heard it delivers on Thursday. >> Oh, so you think it might it just might not have since we just first time it's loaded and you just it might not happen till Thursday. >> No, no. >> I'm listening. >> The lady that's with me is literally screaming her head off. >> Yeah, I hear. >> Uh the jail people are about to come over to her and do something. >> Right. Oh. I mean, that just and being in that environment can't be good. >> No, it's so toxic in here. It's literally the worst place you can possibly be on Earth. >> Yeah. And I know you don't want to get used to it, but are you at least getting somewhat familiar with it so it's less Is it Is it getting a little easier? >> No, it's gotten harder. >> Aw. >> Harder. The longer that I go without nicotine and marijuana, the more I want it. >> Well, I mean, you'll probably over avoid marijuana in future regardless, but I understand if you crave some nicotine. Well, yeah. I'm so sorry you're dealing with that, baby. I know you can't You know, all you want is a distraction. I get it. >> All I want is a hug from you. >> Yeah. >> All I want is a pillow. All I want is a pillow for my head. >> But you don't even have a pillow? >> No. >> You just sleep on a flat sheet? >> Yeah, everyone does. >> So, it's your choice of whether you want to roll up your blanket for a pillow and be cold or have a blanket. >> Yes, that's your option. >> If with commissary, can you order like another blanket or a pillow or anything? >> No, only you can get one. >> You can only get one blanket? >> Um You can take your t-shirt off and roll it up into a pillow, but then you'll be freezing. >> Even with the blanket? >> Yeah, I've done that a couple I've done that a couple of the nights that I like I'm really really really cold. >> Right. Aw. Well, hopefully there's something when you're able to order commissary that can make it a little easier. I don't know what kind of stuff they have. I'm just I'm hoping you can get some food you can eat. Did you eat it all this morning? >> A few pieces of iceberg lettuce, that was it. >> Yeah, that's that's doesn't even have calories. >> a few pieces. I literally mean like literally like three or four small pieces. That was it. >> That was the salad portion of your meal? >> That was the salad portion of the meal and then the rest of it was um like uh curly uh spaghetti with meat and beans with meat. >> Oh god. Um >> And um milk um milk like 2% milk. >> I mean it might have been worth trying to eat the beans and just eating around the beans. Like >> I couldn't. The meat was like tiny in there. >> Uh-huh. Eat it bean by bean? >> I thought about that and I tried but I gagged so hard. I was like I'm going to throw up. >> Yeah, well maybe soon you got to get your strength back. >> So that was lunch. I didn't get breakfast. >> They skip breakfast? >> I didn't get breakfast. The breakfast was just meat slices. And slop and milk slop like slop slop and meat slices and slop. That was what it was. >> the commissary you can order different food or like a different meal. >> Yes, but the the lady Dawn who is another inmate here told me that if you don't order it by noon on Wednesday it doesn't get delivered until the next Thursday. >> So it takes one week for whatever you ordered to actually become available. >> Yes. >> Wow, that's crazy. >> And because I was just released out of my cell 9 minutes ago today and it's 2:43 it might not even be here tomorrow if I order it right now. It might not come tomorrow. >> Right. Well, best thing you can do is as soon as you done with me you give it a try and hopefully it'll be set up and ready to go and and they'll get it team later >> I'm going to try when I get off the phone with you. >> Yeah, of course. And then they're going to come bust you about trying to keep everything going Versailles. >> I want to go to the grocery store when we get out and I want to I want to on the way back I want to I want a smoothie. I want I want my coffee. I want to go to McDonald's and then I want to go home and I want to I want to I want you to I want you to like give me a bath. >> Give you a what? >> Give me a bath. >> A bath? Give you a bath? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. We can We can get you cleaned up, baby. >> I I don't even want to stand. I want I want you to bathe me. >> Pamper the [ __ ] out of you. >> I want you to take care of me. >> Mhm. I want I want that. I want you to be safe and happy. >> I need you to take care of me and love me. >> I'm always always going to love you, babe. >> I need that more than ever right now. >> I know. I know. I'm here with you through this. >> I think I feel a little better because I have so much faith right now. I have so much faith right now. >> Yeah. You have the faith. You've been at least even if you haven't been able to eat, at least you've been getting some medication. Which while it's not enough, it's at least hopefully alleviating a little bit of your withdrawal. >> Yeah, it's not nearly enough, but I don't know how much it's even helping. >> Right. It's It's not making you feel better. It might just be making you feel slightly less terrible. >> I think that's it. >> Yeah. I was going to say your voice sounded a little more clear when I first heard you talking to me today. Sounds like you're a little more with it. >> Yeah, I had really bad >> Really bad dreams. My dreams were just like me being in prison, so. >> Right. Yeah. >> Even in my dreams, I can't escape this place. >> Nightmares of where you're already at. >> Yeah. >> Oh, and that sounds terrible. >> Yeah. >> Mhm. Have you Oh, well, I was about to say if you talked to your mom or dad yesterday, but you just said that you only just got out. >> Pick up I call you immediately. >> Mhm. >> I call you first. Yeah, call you first usually. >> Yeah, I'm happy to hear your voice. >> You're my person and I call you first. You are my You are You are my missing I am your missing rib. >> Yeah. We're a unit. >> We're a team. >> Mhm. >> And I love you so incredibly with my whole heart and soul. With every ounce With every ounce of my being. I love you. >> I know you do and I believe you and I love you, too. Yeah. I was just doing some of the reading in the Bible. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. Although, I'm honestly afraid I'm going to rip one of the pages. They're so light. >> What? >> I said I'm afraid I'm going to rip one of the pages while I'm reading. They're They're It's just such a nice Bible, though. The pages are so thin. >> Oh, yeah. >> Don't worry. I'm being extra careful. >> Yeah, I've been reading a lot, too. >> Good. I'm happy. That That makes me If nothing else, at least it's something that's a distraction so that it can pull you out of it a little bit. >> Yeah, I mean, either reading my Bible or sleeping or out here. >> Yeah. Well, honestly, sleeping I wish you could just have some sleep without terrible dreams cuz if you could sleep through as much of this as possible, honestly, the better. >> I know. I know. If I could just sleep, it would just go quicker. >> Oh, it's so hard, baby. >> This is That was telling >> know you don't want to clean up, but you might be able to sleep a little better if you do. >> What do you mean? >> I don't know. I just It when I'm like my skin is really attacking, like after a while it starts to get really itchy. >> wash myself. Wash myself. Yeah. >> Yeah, I thought about that. Maybe that'll make it easier for you to go to bed at the end of the night. >> I still haven't done that yet. >> Maybe it'd be worth looking into today. And if nothing else, it's a distraction. It's something to do for 15 minutes. All right, we got a few minutes left. Is there anything you want me to tell the kitties? >> Tell them that I miss them. They're funny. >> They miss you, too. Squeaky especially. >> Yeah, I miss them so much. >> Yeah, Squeaky's actually been a little more friendly towards me, I think. Well, he he's a little lonelier without you there, so he's he's willing to reach out. Yeah. But they've been really good. Bella, I'm thinking I'm going to cut out her kibble for a while. She's getting pretty chunky. >> Or just reduce it dramatically. >> Yeah, I'm not going to cut it out entirely. I'm just not going to give her an unlimited supply. >> Yeah, she's ready to be cut down to 1/8 cup. >> Mhm. Yeah, she's she's Honestly, I'm She gets about 1/2 as much kibble as Squeaky throughout the day. Cuz she's kind of chunky. He needs anything. He's a little skinny. He eats constantly, but he just moves constantly, too. >> Yeah, he's very active. >> He is. He is a very active bunny. >> Oh my god, honey, the pain in my abdomen is worsening. Like, so bad. >> All the inflammation and anti-inflammatory stuff is basically why you're starting to swell. >> Yeah. >> I'm really so sorry. That could also be a period coming on. >> Yeah. >> Oh god, baby, I really don't want you to have to deal with that there. >> I haven't had a period since since last year. 1 minute left. >> I heard. Don't worry. You can always call me back later today, too. >> I know. I promise I will. >> That's fine, baby. I I understand. If you ever tell me you're going to call and you don't, I know it's not by choice. You know what I mean. >> Yeah. I love you. >> I love you, too. Yeah. I just I just want you to be okay, and I want this to get better. >> I think I just I have so much faith now that I am fearless in God's name. >> I have the faith. You gave it to me. You helped me find it. >> That makes me happy. >> Good. Cuz it's true. >> Hey, honey, I'm going to hang up before they come on us. >> Okay. Okay. I love you. >> I love you more. >> Thank you for using SecureUs. Goodbye. >> Bye, baby.