so we stage at like 02 03 in the morning on her camp but the night prior my platoon Commander comes in and he's like everyone's going to write their death letter I saw some guys get shrapnel wounds I heard the stories of the heads I see and hear the explosions then I'm told to write my own death letter and I'm like what do you say and I had a girlfriend at the time my parents were in my life we all turn our letters over to our commander that's when I knew [ __ ] was [ __ ] real