After the beat, please say your first and last name. >> Molly Duncan. >> After the beat, please say your first and last name. >> Molly Duncan. >> Say your first and last name. >> Molly Duncan. >> Hello. This is a collect call from >> Duncan. >> An incarcerated individual at Kyahoga County Correction Center. >> Hello. Helen, >> I'm here. >> Hi, honey. >> Hi. >> Hi, honey. But you still haven't given me any medication yet. >> No. No. I know RJ's working on but it's going to take some time. Are you still just waiting? >> I am still just waiting. I've had most of the day actually outside of myself which has been um quite a relief because I know like I'm not supposed to really talk to anyone but and I'm not saying anything obviously but I am praying. >> Well, you're allowed to talk to about your >> I'm not No, I know. I know. I'm not stupid. I'm not going to say nothing about my case. If anyone asks me why I'm here, I just say mental health. That's literally it. Um, so, but it has been comforting to for me to like pray for the other women, >> to wander a little bit, pray for the other women. I'm trying to be a source of comfort to the other women here. >> That's really all I can do is like pray for the other women. and and I'm sure they appreciate that. That's very that's so kind of you. >> I've been mostly talking to a deaf woman who was very kind. I've been conversing with her via paper, like writing notes back and forth to her. >> Um been talking to a few other people, but I obviously don't belong here less than no one belongs here, but me less than anybody else. Me less than anyone else. like it's quite obvious, but I am not >> happy here. >> Um, >> I'm glad you were able to find a way to at least appease it a little bit today. Make it a little bit easier on yourself. >> Not really, honey. >> No. Well, >> the time is dragging so slow. Like, I can't believe it's only 4:30 on Monday. And I was told I' like I was told I'd have my port tomorrow morning at 8:30. And that seems so exciting and promising. And now it's told it won't be till Friday. >> Yeah. I I heard that it was something to do with R.J. had a court date or something separate, so he had to push it back a few days. >> Yeah. RJ's just busy. >> Yeah. But I mean, I don't know. Yeah. I mean, it's going to be a little rough, but hopefully it'll it'll you'll get a little more used to it. Hopefully, at least you'll be able to start keeping the food down. >> Well, I don't think I'll be able to keep the food down until they give me the meds. >> Well, that's true. But yeah, I know even if he hasn't been in to see you personally that I know he's called in. So, I know your parents are aware of the medical or the the med thing and they're trying to do something about it. Hey, I talked to my dad earlier and >> yeah, he he let me know you got a hold of him because I when you tried to call me and I couldn't answer, I called him immediately to let him know you were trying to get a hold of me, but he kept dropping the call. So, yeah, your parents have been very supportive. I'm I'm very happy with how they were reacting to this. They just they just love their daughter and they want whatever they can do for you. >> You still there, babe? >> Yeah, I'm here. >> Okay. Okay. Okay. >> I'm here. >> Yeah. But you know, I'll stay on the phone as long as I can. >> Me, too. Yeah. Well, most people are gone. Maybe I'll just stay on while I walk. I got to do my little end of day check to make sure everything's closed up. But you can walk with me. >> Feel like I'm trying. >> No, I know. I wish there was somebody to help you right now. It's going to be hard, but you're strong and we're going to get through it. You just just I'll Yeah, I'll I'll let you know obviously when I can talk to you. Anything that I hear about uh Well, I guess I can't talk specifically about the case, but if your parents give me any good news, I'll pass along or or if you have a message that you'd like me to send as well, I'm happy to do that. But I know you can always call them separately. >> I tried calling my mom and I wasn't able to get through. >> Oh, this the phone system seems a little wacky, >> but Well, you know it works for your dad's phone though, right? >> Yeah. >> Okay. And yeah, so I got my card on file now, so I should be able to accept calls generally. So the only time I won't take your call is if I just if I'm working, my phone's down. I just don't actually I'm not there when it goes off. Otherwise, I will pick up much, honey. >> No, you love me. I can't. I just want you to love you and I just just I want what's best for me. >> What's best for me is to be safe and home in your loving arms. >> We'll do everything we can to make that happen. >> And I promise I promise I promise I promise I promise I will be faithful and and good to you. I believe you. I believe you. I I don't doubt it for a second. >> I have no desire no desire to ever go back online ever again in any way, shape, or form. >> I know. I know. I know. And I I appreciate it. And I know you mean it. And I can tell that. Um, yeah. I want to I want to get my education completed. I want to study religious studies. >> I think you'd make a really good pastor. I'd go to your services and I will uh when I go to bed tonight, I'll make sure I pray again. And I just know that you're always in my thoughts. >> You're constantly in my thoughts, too, sweetheart. >> I'm sorry this is all happening. Yeah, I got to stop and pick up some bunny food on my way home. They're about out of hay. Well, >> give the bunnies all they love. I will and I'll buy them better hay this time. They didn't like that thick straw stuff that came out last time. I think they seem to really like it. >> Oh, >> the last bag of hay we bought it was just like thin and crispy. That seems to really like it. Sweenie doesn't seem to like it as much though. But >> yeah, they need better. >> So yeah, I'll go pick them up. A big old bag of hay. And they need some litter, too. So I'll do that. Yeah. So, do you have anything you can use to distract yourself or just walk around talking to people? Is that all you can do at the moment? >> When you're let out of your cell to talk to other people, that's all you can do. And there's nothing in the open room for you to do but talk to the other people, >> right? >> But there's no games or like TV or nothing. >> I think they at least have like some quiet music going or something. No, you just hear the occasional screaming. >> Oh god. >> Like you try to sleep at night and you just hear the occasional woman screaming her head off. >> Oh god. >> And I thought a woman had even been me actually. >> When I first got moved in here, when I first was moved in here, I was like, I need a Bible. I need a Bible. I need a Bible. I just kept screaming, I need a Bible. >> Yeah. >> I need my medication. I need a Bible. I need my medication in Lord's name. Deliver me a Bible. Deliver me my medication in Lord's name. That's all I could say. >> Oh, that's all I could say. That's all I could say. >> No. Well, they they've got I mean, they really have to do something about the meds. If not, that can't be legal, especially considering one of them is for your surgery and it's keep your inflammation down. Uh, I'm more concerned about the prestige, the brain zaps I'm receiving now. >> No, that one's by far the more important, but I'm thinking the other one they have no justification to withhold it. It's just for medical. >> Oh, I know. Oh, I know. It's completely my Yeah, they have no reason to withhold the members. >> But yeah, but all we can do is let R.J. cover it. The the more we just let him do, the better it'll be. Do you think you're going to be a Christian with me now, honey? >> Well, I won't jump all the way into, but I don't know. I I genuinely felt something just I don't know if it was really a presence, but it was comforting. And that's the first step, right? >> That is the first step is to pray and go to church together. Even if you don't feel like going together, we have to go to church. When I am out of here, you take me to church, >> you go to church and we pray every night and I don't I don't ask I don't ask more than that. I won't force this on you. I won't be mean about it. Okay? I will be loving and kind to you with it. Okay? I will guide you in in kindness and love towards him and and I will not I promise. Okay? I will not force you. >> Yes, I believe you. And yes, as soon as you are out and we can, we are going to start going to church. >> Yeah, >> I'll be happy to do that with you if you come back to Bren. >> Yes. >> Yeah, I think I think that'd be good. >> Do your parents know anything? >> No, not really. They don't know anything. >> I mean, obviously my mom knows that you were taken, but she doesn't know details as to why or anything like that. >> Okay. Probably better it stays that way. >> Yeah. No, I'm not going to talk about it. Like you said, you know, it's it's not their business. It's also recorded conversations. We won't bring anything up. But no, I'm I'm not sharing your personal your details with them. Yeah, I've been in the same clothes I've been in the same clothes I've been in since I got here on Thursday. >> Oh gosh, man. That's way too long to not even be able to clean up or get a change of outfit. >> There is a tub, but it is an open tub where everybody can see you. Um, and I do not want to bathe there. there. So, it's just it's the trade-off. They have a place, but it's not at all private. You just don't want to deal with that. >> Yeah. It's one open tub for about 20 to 30 women, >> right? >> And they don't clean it. They don't clean it. Oh. And they don't clean this place. They don't clean it. They make the inmates clean it. >> Yeah. Yeah. That's >> Isn't that horrible? seen that. >> I've seen that's pretty compressed. The problem with that is they never seem to do a very good job. >> Nope. I've seen bugs crawling around in my cell crawling around all over the place. >> Oh god, that's horrible. >> I just feel blessed that I am one of the women who can leave their solitary confinement because a lot of these women can't even I don't know. They're probably dangerous, but you know, they can't. >> Well, that's it. You've never been violent. You've never like I've never thought that you might hurt somebody. So >> Oh, one minute left, honey. I could call you back. >> No. Oh, I I'm I'm finishing up work. I wouldn't be able to take the call me. >> Okay, I'll call you back in a little while. >> Yeah, you can. >> I'll call you back in a little while. >> If not, I'll like I said, I'll leave my phone on when you can call me. I'll take it. >> Okay, honey. But yeah, so don't just just remember that no matter what, like I know you got scared when I didn't pick up earlier. No matter what happens, I'm not going to abandon you. >> I thought you had >> I That's why I reached straight out to your parents to let them know what happened cuz I figured you try to reach out to them first. I I told them to let you know that I I tried to take the call. Honey, the first person I tried to reach out to you was you >> and then I tried to call them, but I'll let you go before it just dies on us. >> Of course. All right. Um, just stay strong and I I'll pray.