I know you think I'm a liar right now I deserve that but I really am who you think I am almost someone that you'd swear on my daughter died from a drug overdose when she was night my daughter killed herself she was 19. right after we had a fight I wanted to tell her that she was wasting her potential and what I said was that she was wasting space I've been trying to fill the hole that those five words dug ever since I always wanted to be a good cop there's no straight line to that I make deals with bad people to keep drugs from schools and Parks and I I I think to myself I'm doing that because maybe if somebody else did what I did before I did it and maybe she would still be alive I told myself that it was for justice at the end would justify the means but now that I'm at the end I can't justify anything but what I didn't realize this change you they Harden you make it easier for next time it happened so slowly it didn't realize and so quickly that I I never saw it coming but all of it Christina all of it the good bad you're right wrong it was for you hello hi Dad can I call you that I break rules I take money I heard people to protect people um I'm an NYPD Bowl in a Brooklyn china shop but you're asking God's forgiveness you're searching for absolution foreign I can't make a confession yet father because you can't accept God's mercy no because I got a couple more people that I need to hurt [Music]