So yes, I'm taking the downfall as a mother. It hurts my heart because this is my fault. That's what it seeming like. It's all my fault and I up. So yes, my feelings are hurt. Yes, I'm emotional. Yes. Yes. This is all I have. My family is 9 and 1/2 hours away. I have to do I'm not saying that I don't. I'm just telling you where I'm coming from. But you're saying we're trying to snatch your We're not trying to snatch your face, but we're going to do the next steps that we're required to do as police officers. Okay. I'm going just calm down and just let y'all do your job cuz I'm just mad and I just I'm not trying to let the go overflow on y'all.