holding on to that kind of anger that'll destroy you man you know and bottom line like I said before like he's in the ground he's gone and so we have to move on there is life after this and we're going to be fine and truth be told like one of the things I'm very proud of is I have forgiven Zion I have oh yeah yeah I mean the thing is is like I feel bad that he was lost look look at his upbringing look at his background I don't think he had if he did have someone to tell him this is not the right way to live like he didn't listen or maybe he didn't have anybody I have forgiven him you know cuz I want in in my life in my family's life and I know that's the you know that's the Christlike thing to do is to move on and in order to have any kind of happiness you have to you know move on and it's just poison right I mean that's just going to poison you and make you angry and so and move on